Oh, I'm very good at not getting murdered, don't worry about that.
I always prefer to blame our dear hosts for forcing those choices on us, but to be honest... If K hadn't been there, I would have tried to incapacitate you instead. I didn't want to just go straight to killing without knowing if it was what you would have wanted. But I couldn't take a chance when my teammates were in danger again. I could have tied you up, or knocked you out, done something to de-escalate, but I made that decision to go harder myself. So don't take all that regret on yourself.
I care about your safety too, you know. If you were a stranger to me and I was alone I wouldn't have hesitated to go for the headshot either. Only my friends get hesitation.
I'm managing as best as I can. I ended up killing the person I care about the most here and he also set me on fire. After he already had to kill me once, while he was still sane.
We have. He already knew of my preferences, but he was upset about unnecessary extra damage once he also lost his mind. Still. We're working through it together.
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Though I do regret forcing you to make that decision, regardless.
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I always prefer to blame our dear hosts for forcing those choices on us, but to be honest... If K hadn't been there, I would have tried to incapacitate you instead. I didn't want to just go straight to killing without knowing if it was what you would have wanted. But I couldn't take a chance when my teammates were in danger again. I could have tied you up, or knocked you out, done something to de-escalate, but I made that decision to go harder myself. So don't take all that regret on yourself.
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... I'll accept that, then. Still. I do wonder how the rest of it went for you. Are you okay? As okay as you can be after all that bullshit.
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...Well. It went better than the last time I was there, at least. It's always an emotionally harrowing experience, but I'm managing as well as I can.
How about you?
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It's been rough.
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That sounds pretty awful alright. Have you two spoken?
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Maybe I'll channel all the bullshit I'm feeling through painting for our next lessons.
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